Dear uglies,
I was looking through my writings, mind you— I never write and I came across this quote I had jotted down:
“SOMETIMES A NEW IDEA OR WAY OF SEEING ONESELF ONLY EMERGES THROUGH THE ONSET DISRUPTIVE FORCES.” (didn’t write down the author so I’ll just take credit for this quote..sorry not sorry.)
Kitty, you majestical wonderful human being. Currently, we all struggling, me and the homies. I never cared for zodiac, spiritual awakenings or whatever that bullshit is…but yall, that venus retrogade is kicking my fucking ass, because what the hell even is that. Something in the air ain't right and now it gotta do with me? Bye. Anyways, hearing that quote awoken the beast inside of me. #alphamale
I struggle a lot with mental health so hard days, harder days, come easy. Light work type shit. Like I said, I’m not the only one struggling right now, so a quote I’ve been reminding my friends is that to be feeling, is to be human. I was scrolling through my TikTok and honestly, it wasn’t doom scrolling like it normally is. Genuinely, this year has had so many uplifting moments. The unity with the blue wave, the World Cup, Bad Bunny’s cultural shift at the Superbowl, Mamdani’s effect. This doesn’t have to make anyone’s day better, but for me, these are things that I care about, that have deeper meaning to me and give me hope. I was genuinely so happy to see how much people have started to prioritize their lives and this is the result/outcome.
Back in highschool, when I felt like my mental health was the most depleted, I became numb, and it just didn’t feel real. I felt lifeless each day, carrying weight that meant nothing to me. So despite the things I go through now, the things that make feel not worth living, I am truly so grateful to feel. To feel is to conquer and grow. To feel is to present. To feel is to be human, and the only thing we can be is human. That’s the most beautiful thing ever, to appreciate the ground we walk on. Maybe I’m getting too sentimental..#gay #icansaythativehadsexualactivitieswithawomanbefore #andiddoitagain
Today, I got back on Facebook and removed the photos of my ex. Facebook single: DTF (down to be friends)
Guys, calm down, I know, I know, amazing thing there. Now, I still have the rest of my phone gallery, storage. But hey, I’m slowly removing the traces of something not meant for me anymore. Also, I didn’t cry, now I’m not saying tears are a bad thing, but to me, it signifies that I’m accepting something I was in constant denial about, him being gone. Now, I’m not fully healed and I miss him everyday, but a small step is a step in the right direction, and I’m truly grateful to have experienced what I did. NOW IM FINNA EXPERIENCE BRAND NEW SHIIIIIIT. See, life always has it’s bright side. Guys, life is always gonna be shitty and I like to believe I’m a positive person but I also like to keep it real. I think life will always be hard, the path isn’t always straight on, adversities will always come and go, no matter the shape or form of it. Our jobs as individuals is to believe we can make it out okay, that life will be okay. I’m a strong firm believer in that typa shit. My life’s always been a mess, but an organized mess and maybe one day, I will indulge more into it and it’ll be a bit more clean. That’s all for today. Thank you ugly bitches for reading this.
Love,
Kitty
